UNITED

i left my house today to see a big "United" truck sitting there parked in road. i had a flashback if you will of our past moves and laughed a bit. it's about that time where my dad has the four or five year itch, and it's funny that the van wasn't there to move us! not for another 5 or 6 years probably and by then i BETTER not be living there. haha.

this is what should have won.

do you think it's because the votes were split between all three dreamgirls songs? i'll just say that... so good. notice the third song and the extremely high note hit by girl number three.

zane vs. nick

poor zane...he's destined to look like me when he grows up. hopefully he won't have to be as tall, and he'll get his mother's good looks and teeth.

now i need to find a picture from when i was two to post next to him.

black wednesday

well we dropped eric off today at the mtc. it was bittersweet for all. my thoughts while sitting in the family/missionary meeting consisted of two things:

1) this movie is really outdated. maybe my boss would be down for remaking it when he gets home in three years. i bet he'd like the challenge.

2) thank heavens it's not me getting dropped off this time! i was feeling pretty anxious, but it helped to know that at the end of the hour, i would be going through the door that said "family exit."

3) i'm a much different person than i was two years ago. no where near where eric is as being prepared for a mission goes. but in these past few years, i've learned more about myself. yes, i'm a different kid, but that's what i like about myself.


also i realized that i have had a knot in my stomach for the past month and it's not getting any better. coming to work today didn't make it any better. we have so much to do. i guess the next thing to look forward to will be the trip to arizona in march. but it's going to be a beast of a time working up to that day before we go.

5th gear, here i go.

11:59

songs on LM 07

Make this Go On Forever: Snow Patrol
Sound of your Voice: Barenaked Ladies
Never Say Die: Dixie Chicks
On a Night Like This: Dave Barnes
Love You Madly: Cake
Bound By Love: Gran Bel Fisher
Eyes on the Prize: M. Ward
Sweetness in Starlight: Matt Wertz
Gracie: Ben Folds
Home: Katharine McPhee
The Real Thing: Gwen Stefani
Be My Somebody: Norah Jones
Love Will Come Through: Travis
Love Love Love: Tristan Prettyman
Gotta Have You: The Wheepies
Bold as Love: John Mayer
Love You I Do: Jennifer Hudson
Invincible: Muse

mmmm. lm07.

just a quickie

Tonight for my sound class we went to a concert on campus. It was a choir concert. As I sat there listening for natural reverb and natural resonance I found myself not missing choir singing really at all. It just seems so boring! Sure, it's very pretty, but I got bored tonight. That was the first thing I realized. Don't miss choir (eventhough if I want a music minor, i might have to be in choir for a while...)

The second thing it caused me to ponder on was how my scholastic desire has changed since I was about emily's age. I bring this up because a member of our class was singing tonight and was worried he'd miss the lecture, not get participation points, and *gasp!* maybe not get a perfect grade in the class. richard, my teacher, assured him last thursday night that he could listen just from a different point of view.

When I was emily's age all the way up until probably my second year in high school (being 11th grade) I was like that. I remember being so nervous over this and nervous over that. blah blah blah. emily was home the other day and flipped out over some assignment that she forgot to do or something and she was almost in tears. i kind of want that to come back! i get so lax with my class attendance now. once i figured out i could get away with it in high school, there was no turning back. and college has even more freedoms. i pick the lectures i want to hear, and the lectures i want to miss. it's a terrible habit! and i'm trying to break myself from it. i don't think i'll stop until i completely bomb a class and get a d or some joke like that.

take for instance a five page paper due tomorrow. have a started? no. will i tonight? yes. will it take me longer than an hour? no. will i get anything lower than an a-? well if it's like the last paper i wrote for this class, no. granted, i've had classes, and papers where i feel the need to get started on early. take for instance my application packet. i'm taking that VERY seriously. it all goes back to the balance thing. once i've learned how much it takes to please a teacher, i'll only go that far even if i know i could give more.

it's a terrible habit, and one day it will burn me and it will burn me bad.

me now and me a year ago

I took this picture (below) today. I'm feeling really good about my health again. I'm trying to get in shape like I used to be in high school. Not necessarily the same size, but as you can see, i have a neck again! (2006 was my fattest year to date. i hit 220 when i left for logan.) today i am at 188. feeling great!

pan's part II

i forgot about my follow up blog to pan's labyrinth where I was going to discuss the terribly tragedy that happened in salt lake.

i know as human beings we all have different thought processes and we all are affected differently by what the world swings are way. i saw this movie. it took place during a war which means there was a lot of guns being shot and a lot of violence and a lot of blood. there's even a scene where a lady puts a knife in a man's mouth and slices open his cheek. a very cool special effect. but that's all it was to me. and that's what violent scenes in movies are to me: one big special effect.

i've never thought that someone else watching the movie might want to act out what is seen. as I was talking to mel about this, i agreed with her that it's getting acceptable for younger and younger kids to see really violent movies or play really violent games but that 100% of the problem isn't from viewing these things. i wish we could know more about the 18 year old kid who shot up the mall. the news channels have been finding more and more out. he lived with his mom, was never really social with anyone, and never came out of his house a lot. HELLO! where is the social life? i admit that i see a lot of movies. and when i bought zelda i played it pretty solid until i beat it. but i still allow myself to be with friends and just get out.

i don't really know where this post is going, but it does make me grateful to be in my family. we're loony, but we are social and we go out and play and enjoy life! we play video games, and sometimes it's a fun gathering for me and my brother's to do to spend time with each other. i guess it just goes back to the idea of having a healthy balance in our lives. this semester is a swear word to me, but i go to the gym to let off nervous built up energy and i go to the movies to enjoy a story to give my own story a two hour break.

vd

today is valentine's day. to me it is just another day in february. atleast this year. haha. i took the opportunity to spend some money on myself. i bought a new pair of cool board shorts, and some new cologne. (in efforts to maybe not be single next feb. haha)

that is all i can say about this day.

pan's labyrinth

i went and saw pan's labyrinth last night. it was like a children's story for adults. i mean look at the picture. that creature eats children. (and small fairies.) but i really enjoyed the imagination and idea behind this story and film. very creepy and FASCINATING!

this movie leads me into my next post that i will write later regarding the shooting that just happened at trolley square in salt lake.

the MOA

I found my new favorite place on campus today. It's the upstairs part of the museum of art on campus. I love it. It has a view of the mountains, a nice quiet area to study or just hang out, and not a lot of idiots actually come into the museum so it's a great atmosphere.

i feel like ditching classes just to stay here....

today i am writing a script, if you can call it that, for my application video. i like to listen to music that i would or could use in the movie. today i am listening to sufjan stevens. it's quite brilliant work. it sounds to me a lot like music you would hear on the little miss sunshine album. (also a good soundtrack...that what i will be listening to tomorrow.)

any favorites out there of sufjans?